Making the Darkness Conscious
Sitting – or more like staring uninterrupted – as if into night’s vast sky
You pause from the torment of tears that newly defines your once insulated life
It has been only days – but feels like years – no longer defined by time or space
The sofa – firm, but soft enough to hold the wobble in your bones – cradles you
The orange Buddha candle flickers through the darkness of the living room
A living room no longer – newly inhabited by your flailing heart
Lost – you fall silent to the sink hole now called your life
Catching the light – Buddha’s face pulsates between your breaths
Ignited – not just by a candle from within – but an unanswered call
It happened – “I died” you say – with no one there to listen
A death – not in body – but in a Self – full of false projections
All that has come to define you burns away – as a wet fog from the rising sun
Now naked of everything – that once described you
Your lifelong prayer finally comes to be heard
Not in the flair of fireworks – or the church bells of a Nirvana from beyond
Nor from a bliss state expressed by the experiences of so many others
You instead – wake up to the reality – of your lifetime of sleep
And sitting – or more like staring uninterrupted – as if into night’s vast sky
You fall fast awake
I awoke lightly at 1:29am, just now, and opened my PC to express my dreaming thoughts, as if they would vanish unless I caught them in flight. As I read your wonderful poem, it coincides with my dream thoughts, “I am the alpha and the omega.” We are spirits light having a human experience of dark. We are always and already the Big Mind, the Big Heart, the Big Oneness…. and we forget.
As we contemplate the essence meaning of quantum physics, we see what it is to be particle and possibility at the same time. As we identify with one voice, we are always and already all voices, like a choice. We are the song and the song sheet. We are the music and the instrument. We play as we are being played. Our consciousness flits from one to the other. Ommm….
This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing.
I like what you wrote very much. It resonates with me at this time in my life.
So beautiful Tamar. Thanks for sharing. I am so grateful to have this connection with you.
Wow. Touched me deeply. Thank you.
So very beautiful, Tamar. So happy to know we are on this path together, falling awake daily.
Falling fast awake. Yes yes and yes. My dear friend.
Heart to heart.
I join the many other voices who are touched by Your exquisite writing!
Soulful sharing… from a soulful Friend!
Thanks for your letting us into… the depth of You.
Deep. Naked. So awake. . . .
Thank you, Tamar, for this hauntingly beautiful expression of your realness.
Love it! So powerful!
Fall fast awake! Beautifully uplifting. Heaven on Earth…
Absolutely exquisite! A treasure! Soul touching! This may well be the most powerful description of “making the darkness conscious” that I’ve ever read.
Much, much love,
I so appreciate you and your depth of wisdom and sensitivity!
Very good timing-as I am shining light into some very old darkness these days.
mmmm… slow, arrow of love, directly into the soul. abundant appreciation for your beingness. -E.
Touched to my core……..
Wandering about the death of a self?
Do selves die?
so looking forward in connecting soon.
Wow, what an exquisite piece. It touched so firmly to where I am. Thanks Tamar
falling fast awake
I like it Tamar,
Loved reading it. I especially liked the last line.
Thanks for sharing~
Beautiful, as you are. Thanks for the share, perfect timing.
Thank you Tamar for such beautiful, touching writing..it makes circles in my being as if a stone has been thrown inside a lake .
looking forward to connect soon !
Beautiful Tamar! I love the idea of falling fast awake! 😉
So beautiful, and soothing, and real. How exquisite is your writing.
Love getting your blogs, and
sending you love,
This is beautiful Tamar. Thank You!